Ok, so over Winter break my friend wanted me to take pictures. He's an author and is obsessed with the 1920's to 1950's. He writes books on the fashion of the era and has so many memorabilia items. All these old clothes....it's awesome. His name is Josh Curtis and he already has a book, Sunkissed, published. It's cool...focuses on 1950's swimsuits and such. Well...he wanted me to model some clothes for a new book. And MAN! These pictures turned out racy! lol I wore all these cool lingerie items that I've never worn before. Corsets, thigh-highs, and undies and stuff. It was crazy. Very interesting. I was sooo self-conscious at first, cuz I am so NOT a naked person. I hate bathing suits and such. Just...oy. Embarrassed or something. Anyways...it was really cool tho, and totally professional, and some of the pictures turned out great. Some I think are very artsy, some are pretty, some I think I look like shit in, and some I look like some girl-for-hire. hahaha But if anyone wants to check out some of the good ones they're posted under "Warning" in my Yahoo photos. Well... go here: http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/halletalk/my_photos  But it's so funny, cuz my roomies are taking sexy pictures too. We even had a set of Sugar lookin all smokin on our frigerator. What a bunch of narcissistic bitches we are...  hahahaha.

Jeez...sometimes I read other people's xangas because I'm nosy like that. But being nosy gets you into BAD situations. But at the same time...I think it's stupid to get angry at someone for reading details in your life...especially when you post them on an ONLINE journal! Duh.

Anyways.

Christmas was...interesting. I love Christmas, but for some reason I just wasn't feeling it this year. Christmas day I just went to my aunt's house like usual. It was nice to see the family again, but at the same time we're not close at all...so it got to be a bit boring. Sometimes I wish my family was more close-knit. I have so many friends who's families are their first priority. I love my family, of course, but they're not my first priority. But maybe that just says something about my character rather than anything else.  Sorry. Plus Christmas had some...emotional moments. I had to make a decision and I did it. I had to walk away. Too bad I'm not very good at sticking to my decisions. But I knew that in this case me "walking away" would be me pretending to not care. I figure it's bs anyways and there's no denying I DO care...so I might as well fess up and continue a friendship.

My new years was rather blah. All my friends were out of town partying in Vegas or with family or whatever. I was sad. Especially cuz one person who I wished would have called me on that day never did.  Well, he said he did, but I never got it.

I had a breakdown and an epiphany over the break. I realized that the source of my unhappiness was myself. Ok, I lied...I knew that all along. But I realize that I can't blame my mistakes on anyone or anything and if I don't take action I'm only going to slide deeper and deeper into this abyss. So I'm trying to claw my way out. It's a new year and I've got a lot of changes to make.... Wish me luck.

Alright. Haven't written in forever. School is school....I just can't wait for finals to be over. Freedom! At least for a couple weeks. One nice thing was that I aced my psych midterm w/ out even studying. Booyeah. lol

I'm soooo into the Christmas spirit. I'm pretty much all done w/ my x-mas shopping, and this was before Thanksgiving was even over! haha. I'm excited. I just love this time of year... the lights, the decorations, the presents, the food, the ambience....it's all so nice and warm and comforting. I really want to go to Disneyland. I want to see it all decorated and see the "snow" that they make fall and all the lights and cute things. That would be nice.

It was sad! On Thanksgiving I got food poisoning.  So I was throwing up and feeling icky all Friday. I had to stay inside in bed all day. I missed all the sales!! haha. Nah, it sucked, but it's over now. So oh well. But today was nice. I felt better, being sick made me lose some weight, I went last minute shopping to catch some of the sales and got a nice jacket, I met up w/ some old friends from high school who I haven't seen in a long time, and got to play w/ my friend's puppy. Soooo cute! Totemo kawaii desu.  So today was rather nice and busy.